I Could Have Easily Fallen Apart

I had just gone in for a routine physical and expected everything to remain mundane.  But shortly afterward, I received a report that could have easily instilled fear and uncertainty about my future.

Fortunately or unfortunately, it was not the first report of its kind I had ever received.  Yet, it had been several years since my last “go-round,” so I prepared myself for the worst, given its recurrence.

Having been through it before and experiencing all those “what ifs” in my mind, I felt an incredible peace inside from God.  I had surrendered myself and everything in my life to Him, including my children and husband, and I knew He would take care of them if things went sideways.

I am not saying it was a fun experience to face the reality of what could happen.  But knowing I belonged to Jesus and my life was in His hands brought me incredible comfort and reassurance.

In the weeks leading up to my final results, I remember feeling encapsulated by an indescribable serenity that did not make sense, given what I was facing.  But it was the very thing Paul described in Philippians 4:6-7 when he wrote, “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”

Yes, the threat was real.  No, I was not looking forward to the journey if things went badly.  But, honestly, I had never experienced so much peace amidst such uncertainty.

”The unknown” is a scary place, and my heart goes out to those who face it daily.  But in those times, God’s promises rise to new levels in our hearts, becoming our anchor and lifeline—promises like Hebrews 13:5, which says, “I will never leave you nor forsake you,” and Isaiah 26:3, which states, “You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.”

Whatever you are facing today, look to Jesus, the author, and perfecter of your faith.  He is with you and will remain with you forever.